SO LOST

I want to go back to yesterday
When I was just a new born
Those days seems far away
Once again, I wish it can be dawn
Those days I felt your love
Now, I've never been this so off
Those days you'd scold if I don't pray before a meal.
And told me it means that I am conscious of your presence
Those days I could barely go a kilometer in a bus, Without either feeling bad
'Cos I couldn't tell people about you
Or feel fulfilled because I expressively spoke about you
Now, preaching to the air is more difficult
Than cramming some set of physics formula
I went to church after a long while
And heard the preacher holler something like Wilderness experience.
Is this what is like?
I come to a point sometimes I doubt you
Even after those days I spoke to the weather in your name,
It did obey.
Even those days I spoke to power supply,
It did obey.
Even those days I stepped into the wisdom of you.
Right now, I forgot about all that.
Jesus, that's not bad right?
At least, John the Baptist had his doubts
Even after all he witnessed
Can I say my doubts is spurring a chase of truth
Lord, I try to be without you
I couldn't help myself heal
I found all I was is you
The hole in my heart got bigger
The questions in my head increased in number
This feeling of being lost clouding my head
Lord, if I be lost
Just like the lost sheep
Find me, I'm here standing
Not knowing what to do
Find me, oh my shepherd
So lost


©Victor_Loore

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