ABUSED TO HOOKED Nonfiction [3]

 I began to grow. I took the extended periods of prayer and stayed in God's Word. I started learning so much. Then God just kept bringing good friends to me who kept teaching and teaching me. I met a sister (who would turn out to be my greatest friend and mentor) around this time too. This was around SS1 already. She introduced me to several men of God and their messages, mostly Apostle Joshua Selman and Reverend Moyo Akin- Ojo. 

 I had forgotten about pornography. But I was still very immature. I made many mistakes, especially with ladies( that's story for another time). From that time, I have made deliberate efforts to put God's Word in my heart and on my mouth. I have 'not let this book of the law depart from my mouth'. I have grown and still grow. Thank God for the gift of men.

And thank God I made that decision to stay with God's word early. See, one of the ways to see God's Word work in your life is to decide before you even study it that whatsoever is written there is true, and it defines your life.

Don't wait for circumstances before placing yourself in the Word. Study and get it in your heart. Get it in your heart. When circumstances come, you'll be fighting a won battle.

 Now I'm about to go into the last part from the pornography and masturbation part. I'll ask you some questions here.

Have you ever thought of what you want your future and especially, your marriage to look like?

Now have you ever thought of the person you probably want or think will be the man/woman in your imaginations?

Also, have you ever fantasized about your wedding and your honeymoon and your first night with your husband?

Now we can fantasize all we want o. But there are some areas we must learn not to fantasize about. 

To guard our heart.  Don't go and be fantasizing about how your first night will be together after marriage, how your first kiss will be, how you just won't be able to hold it anymore and instead of you to rest after your wedding, your desire will get the better of you. Don't paint those pictures and those scenes in your head. Avoid it as much as you can. Most times, our imaginations aren't even the actual scene when they happen.

 It's not healthy to think such things because if you notice, most times, those thoughts lead you to start painting sex scenes in your head. And you'll start imagining and imagining things. The devil is very deceptive. You'll think it's fine because at least, you are not envisioning it outside marriage. You're still thinking within the confines of marriage. The point is that you were outside marriage while you thought of it and it's sin, you commit adultery in your heart.This was exactly what happened to me. And very recently. It happened just this past week as a matter of fact. That's why I decided to tell this story. The entire story culminates into this part because 'Let he that thinks he stands beware lest he falls'.

So Scripture doesn't just tell us to guard our hearts, we are admonished to guard it with all diligence. ALL DILIGENCE.

 I was busy some few days ago. I was thinking about quite a number of things as I worked and much of it was really based on what I want my life to be like, how I don't want to live the same life many are living, raise my children the way many around me are raising theirs, what I want and all that. As I thought, one way or the other, I started thinking about my marriage . I thought of many things: honeymoon, first night together, wedding etc. And well, as I thought, I started imagining some very wrong things.I had a lot of bad thoughts.  And it was sin. 

 I had never masturbated before and I knew this was how those that masturbated usually started. I mean, it didn't make sense. I had been blessing people, helping many by God's spirit to overcome addictions, even pornographic addictions. I could not make any mistake now. At that moment, it was either I stopped or I continued.

 I had to do something. I began to confess God's Word. As I worked, I started saying God's Word loud. It worked because that was the place of battle and I had already gotten it in my heart before that day. If I was just struggling to believe that what I was saying was true or even struggling with what to say on that day, I'd have fallen. We have to get God's word in our hearts before trials come. God's word is true and we must settle that in our hearts whether we have reason to or not. That way, when trials come, we'd be victorious. That was what helped me.

Believe the bible before even going to study it. That way, you will swallow all you see inside it hook, line, sinker and fisherman That's how it will produce in your life.

 The devil is a bastard. He gave me wrong thoughts that God's word won't work for me since I've already had the wrong thoughts. But I didn't believe Him. See it's okay to make mistakes. Just don't let them define you. Rise up, take God's word and walk with it 

'Do not gloat over me, my enemy. When I fall, I will rise. When I sit in darkness, the Lord will be a light unto me' (Micah 7:8).

 I just found that I was outside after a while rejoicing as I heard Papa Moyo teach on 'the 3 pillars or redemption' and as I heard Hillsong and Bethel Music. Kai, God's word works o. It is that single most powerful force ever.

 I didn't believe those lies. I only stayed with what God had told me in the Word and by my inward witness. I didn't need to see a vision or have am encounter or see an angel or something to believe the Bible is true. The bible is true and it is God's Word to me. Whether I see an angel or not, what is inside it and the Spirit bearing me witness are enough to uphold me. And like water in a sunny desert, all those thoughts dissolved. I didn't even know when they stopped coming. The struggle continues but, I know I'm not alone. 

I stand for Gods Word.
 I stand for what it stands for.
I stand for sexual purity.
 I stand for abstinence till marriage.
I stand for purity in thought, word and deed. 
And I know I'm not alone.
You are with me, DT is with me, believers all over are with me.
I am strengthened by God's Spirit. I walk in His love. His Word upholds me and I am victorious!
The struggle may continue but I have a sure foundation. I have God, His word and His Spirit. I live everyday knowing this and eventually, all things work unto my good.

You are not pure until you are sexually pure.
-Reverend Olusola Areogun.

Compiled by: Faith Enang

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