Unloved

I wake up this morning, so feeling Unloved. 

And I know this feeling, I've walked this path. 

Nothing feels up emptiness like you, Lord

I've tried it all: ladies, emotional entanglement.

Even people's attention didn't work.

I know you love me, Lord. 

Probably I don't know enough. 

I remember the early days I just got born again. 

I could literally feel your love. 

I'm sorry, I know I do not walk by feelings

And that I cannot please you without faith

And see Lord, I know you see the intents of the heart. 

Far from it that I be like that deceitful generation,

That asked for sign to believe when they've heard and seen. 

And I believe in you, that you're the Son of God. 

That you came, died on the cross and rose again for the Salvation of men. 

But I'd love it, if you can wrap me in your love. 

Even if it's that last time that I'd walk by feelings. 

As much as I want to know and be conscious of your love, 

I'd love to feel wrapped up in your love once again. 

But your will, help me to know how much you love me, Lord.

And help me to stay in your presence, more. 

Help to study and Meditate on the holy scriptures even when it feels not interesting. 

Help me to pray even when I don’t feel like it. 

Just help me to know, that you are here. 

And that you love me. 

When I know so well, probably every thing will be a cruise. 

August, 2020

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